What the actual fuck. Can people be more precise and honest? Just be fucking direct and say it to my face.

You know whenever I said I'm going to leave, I don't mean it. Its because I can't bear to but you know one day I WOULD. I can't just keep on holding on to something so fucking useless. I need to rely on my own. After this time, I want nothing to do with you. I'm sorry but I don't want this kind of life anymore. You just make me feel like I'm just a fucking burden to you. I'm sorry, once again. I didn't plan all these.

I lie because I've got pride. I don't want to know the truth and there you go, just hurling insults at me. I know I'm not great but I'm trying. But you just keep on pressurizing me. You think that can make me change? No. OKAY IT WILL NOT WORK.

I listen to Hey Jude whenever I'm sad. I'm always sad. I don't need anyone. This year was really really sucky. I hate it.

I don't need you in my life, honestly speaking. You're just my friend, nothing more than that. But it hurts seeing you just leave like this, without a reason. I'm a person who really cares about the smallest things in life. I wish I could just let that thought of you walking away mingle in the dark but that's NOT me. I just cannot bring myself to do that shit. Spare me a thought and ask yourself, what did I do to deserve that kind of treatment? You fickle minded person.

Back to the old happy days.

I've never wanted to be caught in a situation when everything is just out of place, I don't even know what is going on. But I'm like INSIDE THIS TORRENT and I can't get out.

Spare me a thought and let me out of it. I have nothing to do with this issue of yours.

acquiescent

I am feeling dysphoric and lacklustre. My emotions are unfaltering, what should I do? How can I expiate for the things I've done to let you down. If only I am able to prognosticate and make everything alright. I really hope you're fine. I really do.