thoughts

Just a few things, I really want to say.

1. Sometimes, knowing the truth is better than not knowing anything. Its hard to accept the fact and it will take some time to get over it but its always better than being kept in the dark right? Well, they always say "Truth hurts but lies are worst."

2. Days like this, I just want to lay down in bed and set my mind free. It's always going on and on like a clock. Wonder when will be the time its gonna stop. It fucks my mind up so badly. Over thinking seriously kills.

3. Its funny how a person's mood can change so drastically just by saying a few words or hurling some insults. Words are like... grenades. Idk its too funny and sometimes I really wish I could just shut my emotions away, like whenever I want them gone.

4. I'm NEVER getting into a relationship, its gonna be real messy and I don't like messy cos in the midst, everything is gonna change. Nobody and nothing ever stays the same. At that point of time, somebody will have to start filling in the cracks, trying to mend the problem. Ok maybe not never.

5. I don't even want to try, to be honest.

6. Why don't we all have a cure for love just like they did in the book, Delirium. Where people's feelings are numbed after the cure and they will not feel a thing. No love, no hate. So simple. Why don't we?

7. There will always be people that we wish we didn't know. Yes, plenty of them. Not knowing each other is better that way.

8. Trying to keep my emotions and my own problems to myself from today onwards. Nobody really cares, really. I'm so sorry I've talked too much. I've let people know how fucking vulnerable I am and how I'm always so angry AND sad.

9. So I guess I will just bottle up? And one day, I will just let it out loud to a room full of nothing. Its better than a room full of people who doesn't give two fucks about what I want to say.

10. Life sucks and I will have fucking move on and live with it. Sometimes I wish people would just leave me alone.

11. Its also funny how some people are always blaming the society for everything. Like for insulting people who are not very good looking or people who are not skinny/slim/normal/whatever. Don't they ever realize that what makes the society are the people? We are the one who makes up the society, honey. Don't you guys ever get it???? Humans are the cruel ones, not the society. We are the one judging and insulting. And that will never change. Do you even remember a time when you're not judging?

Imagine a scenario, as a person with tattered clothings walked past you... You might not say it out loud but in your mind, you might prolly be thinking "Oh god, poor fellow. Look at his clothes! Ugh he stinks." I'm pretty sure many of you would think that way. Just as long as someone doesn't fit your own "criteria" of normal, you are bound to judge them. I'm sure.